Thursday, December 31, 2020
End of the Year Gratitude
I want to make climbing walls
Wednesday, December 30, 2020
198
Tuesday, December 29, 2020
The Secret is Whittling
Just whittle all day. That's the secret to happiness. I've spent the past two days whittling and I feel great. I've made a bird. I've made a handle for a climbing wall. And I made another type of hold called a jug.
But yeah. Whittling takes forever to make anything and it eats up a lot of time but it's really engaging and "flow-state"-y. So that's great. I'm just gonna keep this going and make more holds. Or maybe more birds. Or both. I will say that it takes me 3 days to make one bird and I've made two holds in one day. So maybe I'll stick with holds because the feeling of completion is addicting. Good stuff.
Sunday, December 27, 2020
Saturday, December 26, 2020
I'm Gonna Be 30 in 2021
The View from Maw Maw's
Boxing Day 20 Miler
watching home movies
Tuesday, December 22, 2020
When You Think About
Christmas in Covid. Goals for 2021
Runs for the Rest of the Year
Sunday, December 20, 2020
life trajectory
Friday, December 18, 2020
Thursday, December 17, 2020
Running Right Now
February 2020
Wednesday, December 16, 2020
January 2020
what do you learn from running in freezing rain?
Monday, December 14, 2020
12/14
I was sad and then I ate a sandwich
Dating and Relationships
I've been on a good amount of dates this year and met some people and learned about people and learned about myself.
I think until very recently I didn't think of myself as someone who would want to go on dates just for the sake of going on dates and getting to know someone. My mindset was to be attracted to someone, get to know them, be more attracted to them, be in a relationship with them. Dates were strictly a means to an end and the whole point of being interested in someone was to start a relationship. I don't think I pursued this like really aggressively or anything but I always felt that I'm someone who gets really attached really easily and so to head in that direction but then just leaving things at a date felt kind of uncomfortable. Why would I just want to date someone if it was going to cause me to have all these feelings that I would just have to let go?
Well, anyway, flash forward to now and I'm totally over that hang up, haha. I think a couple things have happened. Meeting people seems less stressful and less of an "event". I realized that I like my life the way I have it set up and I don't really want to rush into sharing that with anyone unless it's really going to be a good fit.
I remember at the start of this year, at a new years party, it hit midnight and I was at this house party and all the couples were all coupled up and me and all the single people were kinda in the living room and all the single people were looking kinda sad and mopey. And I felt sorta sad and mopey. And I decided I would make an effort to get on an app and meet people and date. If you had asked me then what I would have hoped to have by now it would have been a girlfriend. And I don't have a girlfriend right now. Sometimes that was from the choices I made and sometimes that was a choice the other person made. But I will say I feel good about my ability to meet people and go on dates. I seem to be likeable enough to people I like that I feel good about myself. And I guess more important than having anything is feeling good about yourself.
I've Lived in Charlottesville for 5 years now
I guess it was 5 years about two weeks ago but I didn't think about the occasion. Usually I think about it when I'm at working at afterschool because that was the thing I did on the first day I moved to Charlottesville. I remember I posted some nice pictures of snow last year and talked about how I'd improved in a lot of ways. I think that's still true. No snow so far this year. I guess we got a little bit one morning this week but it didn't really stick.
I've probably said this before but I think the things I like to do aren't generally seen as important or a big part of, I guess, in general, what we consider to be "going on" in the world. What I'm saying is in reflecting on this year, when everything got "disrupted" it felt like it just gave me more time to do what I want to do. I kinda felt like all that work I was doing and those two jobs I had were disrupting my life.
That's not entirely true. I really like afterschool and I can tell that I miss the kids a lot. It makes me sad.
What am I saying? Something I've told myself a lot during these past few months is to make the most of the opportunities I have right now. I might not get them again. I have this feeling though that I won't be satisfied with what I get out of this time. It's not like I can just run my best race or climb really well and make a good drawing during these COVID times that will satisfy me for the rest of my life. I'll always want more and I'll always want to find ways to improve. But maybe this is a time where I can make more progress than I otherwise would have. I think that's definitely been true.
Sunday, December 13, 2020
Wednesday, December 9, 2020
the workout went well
Monday, December 7, 2020
floor with a fire
Sunday, December 6, 2020
Recovery
Saturday, December 5, 2020
Long Run
Woke up at 7 to run with Peyton this morning at Keene. We did 10 miles. I thought I would go to 100 minutes or 14 miles but I looked at my watch and saw 50 minutes and thought, "there's no way I'm doing another 50."
I still got in 72 minutes and I'm thinking I should be able to go out for another easy half hour this afternoon. That will probably have to be pretty soon actually.
I was really sore this morning. Probably somewhat from lack of sleep and mostly from weight training. But that's a good feeling. The thing I need to be careful with is injury. Whenever I take a really granular approach to running I always get really focused and push myself hard and then greatly increase the chance of injury. I have to be careful and smart.
Peyton suggested he could help pace me for a 1600 time trial in a couple weeks after I told him about my good mile pace workout last Monday. That would be a really good opportunity. I think this Wednesday I'll do a sub-5 1600, take 5 minutes rest, and then do 6x400 with 200m rest and try to run 69 or faster for each one. That should be really doable after running those paces pretty comfortably. I did that in June of 2015 the year I ran my current mile PR. If I can do that workout it would give me a lot of confidence to go for a fast mile the following week. It will probably also be weather dependent. Looks like perfect running weather so far. Highs in the 50s every day and no rain.
There are no excuses to be mediocre right now. I have all the time I need to train and recover. This is my opportunity to get to a new level.
Right now I should roll out and stretch and get ready for a short easy run.
Friday, December 4, 2020
Training
I woke up today and really wanted to run some fast 200s. I thought if I could do 3x200m all in 28 seconds, and maybe even one under 28 seconds, that would be really good. Well I ran 28.3, 28.9, 28.8.
It was pretty good. Immediately after finishing I wanted to be able to run a 27. I think I can get there. I've been doing some core and weight training and the focus on mobility and stretching is really starting to show. Today it was about mid-50s and a bit windy so I had a tailwind but I think on a good warm day I could really rip one. And it's going to take a while before those extra things really start to pay off but I have the time and motivation to do them well.
I also had a good climbing session in the evening. I sent two problems that I started last time and made some progress on some others.
Tomorrow I will do a long run. Probably 15 miles. I did good work today. I got a little bit better.
Thursday, December 3, 2020
French Language Cartoons
I started this series where I use google translate to write comics in French. I imagine they could go in French language textbooks. They deliberately don't make any sense. And, nothing in language textbooks ever really mad any sense to me anyway. That's the beauty of learning a language. It strips a language of any communicative intention. Like, I'm not trying to say anything to you. I'm just speaking the language in a way you can understand. So, I think it's ripe for absurdism.
Anyway, I tagged a bunch of educational social media accounts in my IG story and sparknotes replied to the story with the heart-eyes emoji. Which is hilarious. So maybe I'll keep doing that. Or if I make enough of them I'll assemble them into my own Learn French with Google Translate zine.