Thursday, April 5, 2012

go to sleep

words for now and words for later too
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It's important to make beautiful things.

It's important to make beautiful things and work very hard.

It's important to make beautiful things and work very hard because if you wanted to make a giant bird and you built it in the center of campus and every day and every night you worked on this flame colored bird and you built and designed the frame yourself and lovingly crafted the feathers and kept it dry from the rain and kept it safe from rabid raccoons and butt-slappers and made sure the wings were sturdy and set and devised some sort of booster system that would send it soaring into the sky past the clouds and if you built this bird people would say, "You're crazy! That will never fly! You're just gonna crash into a building and burn it down!" and you say, "Just wait" and you pick the perfect sunny day and wait until the wind is just right and you launch the bird and the booster system malfunctions and it shoots straight up in the air and gets lost in the sun for an instant before it comes plummeting down to earth, a flaming skeleton, a burning drop from a cloud of ruination and it crashes into a building and burns it down and everyone says, "Look! It crashed into a building and burned it down." but it doesn't matter. You made it. And it only belongs to you. It doesn't belong to them at all. It's your beautiful thing. It's your beautiful failure. You did it for you and you will keep doing it for you.

It's important to make beautiful things and work very hard.

It's important to make beautiful things.

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

You write in metaphors. It's good, and entertaining, but I am confused.

I'm guessing you're a writer in the purest sense-that you love words and language and stories, and perhaps would even want to pursue writing as a career someday.

But why hide behind metaphors all the time? That seems to be pretty much everything on this blog. And maybe that's because it's YOUR blog, and a way for you to exercise writing. But for readers, metaphors are boring to read all the time. What do we get from reading your work? A bunch of words that come together in a sort of entertaining way, but that we can never find any deeper meaning or understanding from?

You're a good writer. And you shouldn't hide (I use this word grudgingly, because I don't want to accuse you of hiding), behind your metaphors. It's nice to understand what you mean, sometimes.

Andy Lawrence said...

Thank you! I really appreciate your comment and understand what you're saying. I know metaphors are boring and frustrating.

But I guess the point of this post is sort of a response to a lot of blogs I read or USED to read.

And what I've realized is that people who write for other people eventually stop writing. Does that make sense? It's sort of a theory I've had. The only other person I know who still blogs regularly from high school is someone who I am fairly sure is blogging for herself. And solely for herself.

I think there's something interesting and worthy of merit in that. I like reading things people write for themselves but still put up for everyone to read. And they're the only people left who still write stuff!

So, I guess this post was supposed to be a reflection of that. It's better to just write for yourself and if other people can relate to it then great. If it fails, it doesn't matter. It's even BETTER if it fails.

But now this comment is way too long and I'm taking myself way too seriously. That's why I tried to follow this post with the vomit thing!

We don't have to talk about this anymore, I do appreciate your criticism but purposeful metaphors would take too much planning and being literal would be boring for me. I just want to make pretty words and loose associations that only I get and let you figure it out. Haha, sorry!