last day of november

 25 more posts to reach 300 in 2025.

We'll be analyzing a quote from Jean-Paul Sartre, he allegedly said once

“That’s what existence means: draining one’s own self dry without the sense of thirst.”

What's ol JP up to here? Draining one's own self dry? So like applying yourself, right? Giving all your time and energy and attention to something. Putting your all into an endeavor until there's nothing left. Everyone's felt that, right? Or a time you tried harder than you thought you could? Maybe you had a liminal experience and things you used to think didn't matter as much. Your priorities changed in a moment of clarity. 

But then what's he saying in the second half "without the sense of thirst." So to exist is not just to give your all but to be so caught up in it that you wouldn't bother with a biological need. Normally, in a survival mindset or going about your regular life, you have all these checks and regulators on the machine of your body. But to really exist, to really do the thing, you have to have a purpose greater than that. It's like a test to be overcome. You can't just give yourself over to anything willy-nilly. It's got to move you in a way that is greater than survival. You're not just a chain in a biological process you're a thing that exists and is doing something. 

That's all I got. 

If you want to exist I suggest you write a letter to your past self and cut out the individual letters and wait for it to rain and stomp around in the slush until you make a big mud puddle and scatter the letters in the mud and watch them swirl and wilt and disappear into the slushed earth and think I am the mashing maker of muck much mud mostly a morass of mottled missives. And then take off heading NORTH as fast as you can

did you know moths have evolved to use ultrasonic clicks to disrupt the echolocation of bats hunting them?

does anyone want to get into an evolutionary arms race with me where we both push each other to the extreme?

I hit 230lbs for back squat!

And then I loaded up 235 and failed it! But was somewhat close!

The road to 300 rolls on! There's a decent chance I get it in 2026. 

I hate the game Simon Says

 what is Simon Says trying to prove?

That if you speak really quickly and in a way that is intended to confuse you will confuse people? The winner is the person who is best able to overcome the actions of a person with ill intent? A moral travesty of a game.

social media doesn't make any sense because why would you want to seem better than you are?

that's not right. there's no upside to that.

in as many things as possible be better than you seem.

be stronger than you look. be smarter than you look. have more money than you look. I feel like nature figured this out a long time ago. 

but then you'd say, "well what about animals that look like predators and what about looking scarier than you are?"

well you got me there but that's not going to make you any friends is it?! yeah. making friends is important. and a good way to make friends is to utilize surprise competence. so there. 

I was scrolling around on wplace and I found the Mississippi River and it was yellow and I thought

 'No. No surely they haven't. They couldn't have."

Sure enough. They did. They made the whole Mississippi river pee-pee colored. Except one part near Quincy and Hannibal where they made it poo poo.

 today I was coaching at the climbing gym and my sister was there and the guy I coached with said, yeah I knew you guys were siblings because earlier I saw her do the same little goofy run on the mats that you do