from the new

 

went on a little sick walk today

 gotta go on a little sick walk. it's been really mild so far but last night I felt pretty crummy. I think I'm through the worst of it now. 

IF HALLOWEEN IS ON 10/31!

 THEN 10/13 MUST BE WEENOHALL!

HAPPY WEENOHALL EVERYONE!

stay inside in regular clothes and give vegetables to...throw vegetables out the window to no one. 

no

go outside in regular clothes and throw raw vegetables into your own house.

weenohall

just resting today

 I have a little bit of a cold. So I'm just resting today. I was going to go out and do things but instead I'm just resting today. I made a bunch of lentils and then ate them. It was a rest day. Yeah.

the marbled lungfish has 133 billion base pairs in its genome

 humans have about 6 billion pairs

why's this weird fish got more instructions on how to make itself than we do?

they can also grow to be 6 foot 5.

I'll never be 6' 5"

they also are most closely related to whatever first crawled out of the water and started being on land

they just believe in themselves so much, ya know. What's hiding in that genome? Dreams. Yearning. Striving. Like that code is ready for every scenario.

"What if me, the lungfish, is in Game 7 of the NBA finals with 2 seconds left and 45 year old Lebron James dishes the ball out to me to make the game winning three with my spaghetti like appendages?!"

The lungfish has genes for that. At the ready. It's 6' 5" and can live anywhere. Why not? Why not dare to dream?

the marbled lungfish

""You watched me. That's all you could do. Who do you think you are?! I AM!"

-Peter Weber"

-The Marbled Lungfish

I like the stream of consciousness rambling

 In the song Barnacle Goose, the Born Ruffians sing

The songs of the birds

Don't bring me calmness no more

Oh no, no they don't sing

And none of the girls seem to think you're cool

It's probably because you smell bad

A skin disease won't get you

Nowhere these days

It's true, it's sad but true

What is he talking about? I'll tell you what he might be talking about. He might be talking about "pitted keratolysis" which is when bacteria get in your feet and cause little pits and make them smell bad BUT you can treat it by rubbing acne medication (benzoyl peroxide) on your foot every night.

And it is sad and true that that won't get you nowhere these days. No but I really think he's talking about good ol teenage angst and the culmination of thoughts and worries and anxieties and troubles that is just so PEAK at that stage in your life. 

And all of that is your ego right? Like it's fully coming online and you're navigating your ego and everyone else's egos and I think the constant challenge is finding little ways to get outside that whenever you can. Like doing things that give you joy for the sake of doing them. Like moving your body. 

I'm not opposed to doing things for your mental health I just think it's not as inspiring as a goal as having a TRANSCENDENTAL EXPERIENCE! Like laying on a big big big big rock and watching the green green green leaves sway in the breeze breeze breeze. 

Like like like what if your consciousness was an astronaut and you're sending it on a rocket to find out what it's like on Be Kind to Everyone Planet. 

I'm not saying you have to live on Be Kind to Everyone Planet but have you explored your own inner gregarious nature? Have you explored your sinister nature? There's whole worlds inside you, big dawg. 

And I think what's most healthy is developing that awareness of all the you's you are and could be.

What I'm saying is this: in the start of Barnacle Goose by Born Ruffians he says (the singer's name his Luke Laonde I think which is an A+ name)

Luke Lalonde sings:

And I'm frustrated with myself

but I can't change

Don't want to be me anymore

Lukey Bookey! The 'you' was never a static 'you' to begin with! The only constant is change! The ride never stops and it's always been happening. Will you always get the outcomes you want? No. But you can always change. That's the whole game. 

if your mind was a yard, what would that yard be like?

 My mind would have a lot of trees in it. Like the border would all be trees. There would be a lot of cedars and tulip poplars and locust trees. The grass would be long.

Here's a thing I've noticed about myself lately. I'll start expressing an idea and then I'll get part way into saying it and realize it's not the way I want to say it and then I'll start all over and say it completely differently. 

Sometimes I can speak in a clear decisive way and then some things could be said in a lot of different ways or approached from a lot of different angles and it's hard to pick one.

But I would rather speak in a clear and simple way.

Cookies are good. Water is runny. Germs are mostly okay. Don't be afraid of germs. But also cover your mouth and turn your head when you sneeze. You can't just be blowing that out in the public air. You have to create your own private air pocket to ruin and then absorb that into your elbow crease. 

I respect reptiles but I don't trust them. I don't think they want my trust. I think they chose a path that doesn't worry about trust and I'm not going to try to force that on them.

Did you know the word scurry comes from the shortening of hurry scurry which is a reduplication of hurry? Reduplications are words like super duper, chilly willy, easy peasy, nitty gritty, dilly dally, zig zag, lovey dovey etc...

But scurry was so cool that it broke off and formed its own band and lived its own life. That's great. No wonder that lizards scurry. They both side, 'here I go again on my own. going down the only road I've ever known. Like a drifter I was born to walk alone.