Back in like 2018 I bought this little device that looked like a portable radio because it was a portable radio but it also had an option where you could plug in an aux and use it as a speaker and you could record anything that you played on it. Great device. I put 143 songs on it over the course of like 5 years and then one day it stopped being able to record songs to it and I stopped using it.

But anyway today I decided to use it again because I've been trying to pay attention to how I feel before working out and doing things and I thought the music would give me a boost and the songs made me so happy. It was like seeing an old friend. Remember my brockhampton phase? No. Of course you don't. I forgot about my Brockhampton phase. But hearing the opening to GOLD. So good. SO GOOD.

And I know it doesn't even seem worth remarking that music made me feel good. But like, the older I get the more I think I deprive myself of music in a way. Or more so that I don't feel like I need music to regulate my mood. I'm baseline okay. Pretty good even. I don't know what I'm saying. Deprive yourself of music, I guess. 

Few things will make you happier than hiding parts of yourself for you to rediscover later.