mitski's my love mine all mine
father john misty I love you honeybear
Florence and the machine kiss with a fist
That's probably enough.
When I was in high school I had an iPod that kind of broke and could only hold like one album's worth of music on it. I forget what happened exactly but I remember it still kind of worked but it hardly had any memory left and the one album I put on it was Beck's 1994 album One Foot in the Grave and I listened to that album A LOT!
It's a bunch of short songs about Beck being a sad little art boy and I really liked lyrics like in Favorite Nerve:
Come for a visit
Come for a stay
I won't annoy you
I won't complain
You can be crazy
Tear up all my things
Cut up the kitchens
Wear all my rings
It's definitely not the healthiest but I find it really endearing that there's sad ol' Beck who's really smitten with someone and telling them they can be flawed and he'll put up with it because he wants to be around them. Explaining it makes it sound even worse but part of me really likes the sentiment.
I definitely didn't have a bad high school experience but I definitely felt 'low' in a lot of ways. Like I was short and looked really young and didn't have a ton of confidence and the thing I loved about Beck was that he was low also but he kind of reveled in it and made it this kind of cool fun weird thing to be. He owned it in a way that felt really authentic.
My favorite part of Mattress is
Take me out to dinner
I'm a loser, I'm a winner
I'm a sucker, I'm a sinner
Won't you take me out to dinner?
Your love
Your kindness
Your body on the mattress
My views have changed but at the time I really liked the idea of this low self-esteem goofy white boy who still ends up with someone and it's not glamorous but like, nothing in my life was glamorous. It's sad little dirtbag nerd love. In a way it's it's own kind of fantasy but it's a low-stakes fantasy.
I don't know if that attitude makes you a very good partner but songs don't have to do that.
anyway there you go
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