Thursday, July 28, 2022
y'know I have many enemies
Wednesday, July 27, 2022
joseph campbell be like
Tuesday, July 26, 2022
perspective
i tried to sit outside for a bit
apples really do make you feel better
i found a bug on my bed
Monday, July 25, 2022
Sunday, July 24, 2022
on school and being out of school
Wednesday, July 20, 2022
Tuesday, July 19, 2022
Monday, July 18, 2022
how do I want to be perceived and why?
Sunday, July 17, 2022
Thursday, July 14, 2022
thinking a lot about coincidences and the things you find and lose
today is Paw Paw's birthday and I ended up coming home to Harrisonburg. A lot of things lined up in a really particular way to make this happen. I ended up with a skin infection around my eye that wasn't improving and I woke up today and it looked pretty gnarly. But it just so happens that yesterday night I met up with a guy I've started running and doing workouts with and it turns out he's an eye doctor and basically diagnosed it on the spot. He happens to be in Harrisonburg on Thursdays so he was able to slot me in for an appointment in the middle of his busy day and got me some ointment that's helping the eye. And on top of all this I've been on the river a lot this summer where people lose and find things all the time and I always say the river giveth and the river taketh away. AND I probably got the skin infection from, among other things, THE DIRTY RIVER WATER.
And it just feels like so many things are connected and aligning and so much of it is out of my control but I think about how I was able to choose my attitude and, even more importantly, I made that connection with the eye doctor because we both love running. And so I think if you do what you can and you do the things that bring out the best in you then people will see that and want to help.
It's no guarantee but I'd say it's the best bet.
Wednesday, July 13, 2022
I love running
Tuesday, July 12, 2022
can't let the little things get me down
Sunday, July 10, 2022
Sunday, July 3, 2022
blue ridge mountains
Saw Grandpa Dave today. It was nice. He has a new home just outside of Charlottesville that he just moved into. I was a little nervous about it because we haven't talked very much since I've graduated from college.
I think there's been tension for a while because from a very young age I can remember a lot of conversations with him centered around certain things I should do and certain jobs that I should have and a lot of times those suggestions weren't things that I actually wanted to do. And I think it was his way of offering guidance and support and they were never unreasonable things, just things like, "you should be a lawyer" or "you should be a journalist if you like writing". But it kinda felt like there was pressure and I knew I didn't really want to do those things. And then when I finally figured out what I wanted to do and who I wanted to become then I felt like we stopped talking. So I don't know. I guess I felt like I let him down. But at the same time, those are my decisions to make and I'm not going to feel bad for not doing what someone else wants me to do.
But it was nice to visit his house and be in the same room as him. It was nice to be around an actual person and not be thinking about this idea of what the relationship was that I'd built up. It'd be nice to have a good relationship with him.