I went in wplace and put HOME in a heart near where I grew up and a heart and Maw Maw by Maw Maw's house.

going on and on about who knows what

 I think a big issue people have, and this is nothing groundbreaking or new, is that there's a disconnect between how they perceive themselves as the self behind their own eyeballs and how they are perceived by others. Well, duh, Andy wow so astute. But I'll give you this example because last week there was a piece of paper in the gym that said someone had the record for the longest time kneeling on a yoga ball and I wondered if I could beat it and I did and now maybe I'm the yoga ball guy. The kneeling yoga ball guy. Oh at character creation he must have put in all his points for balancing kneeling on a yoga ball, that's where it all must have went. 

And no. I didn't do that. I never set out to be the yoga ball guy. If you can believe it. You probably can't. Surely, you think, he's lying to try and make his accomplishment seem even more impressive. Surely he trained and trained to reach the mountain top and when he got there he realized it was the top of Mt. Stupid and he cursed the fact that from the bottom it seemed so beautiful and from the top it seemed so needless and empty. 

A man goes to a doctor and says, "Doctor! I am so depressed! Nothing brings me joy. I haven't laughed or smiled in weeks. I can't go on. You must help me." Doctor says, "Solution is simple. Kneeling on yoga ball record is easy to break. Go to gym and break the record." Man says, "But Doc! I am the man kneeling on the yoga ball!" Everyone laugh.

The second worst thing you can be is the guy with the kneeling yoga ball record. The worst thing you can be is the guy without the kneeling yoga ball record.

I like to imagine that if I was an ant that when I was in ant heaven before I was born and given my deployment instructions

side note: in Ant Heaven there's kind of a reverse pearly gates situation going on where the last thing you do as you're leaving is talking with Ant St. Peter and he's telling you what you're going to do when you get to the colony

I was given my ant instructions and they were like 'worker ant. collect food. bite enemies. don't balance on anything.' but then I got to Earth and knelt on the ant equivalent of a yoga ball and was the best at it and back in Ant Heaven they were like "noooooooooo!" and it's that age-old paradox of how can ants have free will if the ant god is all-knowing and all-powerful

Here's what I think. Here's what I really think. A lot of life, most of it, is being handed a metaphysical egg and the question is: how do you hold it? And the answer is: hold it gently.